Surgery

My surgery has been officially scheduled at City of Hope for September 30th. I've opted for the skin-sparring double-mastectomy, direct to implant. Pretty crazy.

Post-Infusion

Today, I am spending the whole day in my bed.

LAST CHEMO!!!

Today was my last day at chemo! I made a new friend, named Francine, who is also undergoing chemo for her breast cancer. And the nurses even came and sang me a last day at chemo song after my infusion!!! Feels great to have that behind me, even though i am super nervous about my upcoming surgery! My mom bought tickets to come out to Cali to help take care of me, so that makes me feel better :)

Tough Decisions

Sometimes I just wanna lay in bed until the cancer is all gone. The mornings are when I have the least motivation...also because my bed is so damn comfortable. 

But, only one more chemo and some overwhelming decisions to make about the new boobs. Anyone with implant experience wanna message me their recommendations on various styles...i.e. tear-drop shaped versus round? It seems straight-forward but there are actually a lot of pros and cons to both.

Red Carpet

Got invited to an event at Neiman Markus. They want to collaborate with me on some breast cancer events coming up! So excited :)

Bummed by a Boy

Super bummed out today because I went on three dates with this guy who seemed like he had a lot of potential...super handsome, smart, wealthy...and then i told him about my health situation. I minimized it as much as possible and assured him of all the ways I have been living and having fun and how I only have one more chemo and am almost through it! He seemed to take it well, asking a lot of questions, but repeating how it made him feel like a baby for all the things that he complains about. In any case, this morning I got a long text, basically saying that it was too heavy for him and that he just wanted to be friends. :( Sucks.

I feel like the worst part of this cancer has been how people treat me...particularly men! It's like they have no coping mechanisms! I go this handled...not asking for any of your help!!!

Home-Bound!

Road trip back from Vegas with my girlfriend Kendall :)

VEGAS

Having a great time in Vegas. Pretty amazing that I can be going through something like this and still be able to enjoy life so much :)

Still Got It!

I just got offered an all-expense paid vacation to Vegas! I've STILL GOT IT!!! 

This is the event flyer!

Best Shoot EVER!

Today I had one of the best shoots of my modeling career! Pretty amazing that i am 29 and bald and just got to work with one of the most solid teams ever. I live shooting with Rick Rose Photography, and we had an amazing makeup artist, assistant, etc! So much fun and such great work! I feel on top of the world!

Behind the scenes

New Paintings

Been painting a bunch lately! Love that I am learning about this new part of myself. Focusing on the art clears my mind :)

Natalie's Baby Shower

It was really nice to have some girl time with Natalie and her friends...she is the most adorable mommy-to-be !

Only one more to go!

ONE MORE chemo infusion to go!!!

Had my second-to-last yesterday...feeling a little bleh (tired and out of it) today. But excited to have only one more infusion before I can put chemotherapy behind me!

Bald Photoshoot in the Desert

A teaser of things to come! Such a fun shoot!!!

 Rick Rose- Photographer
 Jocelyn Anne - Model 
Carly Ryan Mua- Makeup Artist
 Brandon Sapin - Stylist
Air Butchie  -Behind the Scenes